I wanna drink if drinking can stop my brain from working. I wanna drink and get drunk if being drunk can make me stop thinking.. I wanna pour alcohol down my throat if it is able to cool my heart. What can i do to make myself more comfortable. What can i do to make me happy again. All i must do is stop thinking now~ But i just can't. Today sucks too.. My mind is out of control! The taste is weird and it hurts. Never for years i have felt that bad, is it retribution? I don't know! I want my life back! Can i turn back? GO back to that day and i'll chose the other way out! Please i need something to numb myself! Just for a day! Please~